You asked too much of me- Kristiana Reed

You asked too much of me

My heart has a question,

it asks with bleeding gums

gingivitis raw:

 

Will I always find you

in love stories which aren’t mine?

 

Will you live in every word

I’ll never write, in guilt I try to hide?

 

My heart has a question,

it asks with pulled down sleeves

and rosy cheeks, tugging on loose thread:

 

Will this be us forever now?

 

Heartbroken by my own design

you, always asking why.

 

Will I know you’re happy

when she comes along?

 

An angel of settling security,

everything I refused to be.

 

 

My heart has a question,

it asks with bee-sting tongue

and an aching jaw:

 

Will every smile always feel like victory?

 

A familiar memory shot into the present,

the hope of the hopeless.

 

Will we continue to laugh this way

even when you’re miles away?

 

The lover I chose to lose

and the friend I wish could stay.

 

Will you decide on white and blue?

A chapel and steeple?

Platinum and lace?

 

 

My heart has a question,

it asks with unsettled hands,

fingernails bitten to the quick:

 

Will I always love you

even though, it was me who let us go?


Kristiana Reed juggles writing and teaching English; in both vocations she endeavours to remind people of their self worth and how dazzlingly beautiful the world can be.

You can read more of Kristiana’s writing at My Screaming Twenties

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