Featured Post: Girl Interrupted – Tamara Fricke

the sky was orange
so I wore a grey dress
to encourage more
conventional hues
but I realized
we had inverted
and that birds were
not amused because
curls aren’t meant
for wings and clouds
can’t wear heels
but now wrapping
about this egg
I am tethered
to the trees and
I’m not sure I’m
ever coming down


Tamara Fricke is the 2010 co-winner of the Gertrude Claytor Award of the Academy of American Poets and is previously published by The Lyon Review, Meat for Tea, Attack Bear Press Poetry Vending Machine, Whisper and the Roar, We Will Not Be Silenced, and has been included in a number of compilations.  Her poetry chapbook Our Requiem was released in 2014.  She lives in Springfield, MA, with an ungrateful cat, where she writes grants professionally.

Girl Interrupted – CE Wing

I was barely 9 years old
Betrayed
Used
Confused
Buried the memories
The confusion
The betrayal
The pain
Suppressed
The little girl I was
Who I was meant to be
I was 15 years old
Memories
Flooded back
Alone
Confusion reigned
Sitting
Tears running uncontrolled
Wanting it all to stop
Blade pressed to my wrist
Blood welling
Image of my mother
Was the only thing
To stop the blade
I was 45 almost 46 years old
I uncovered who I really am
Who I was always meant to be
And I had been a
Girl interrupted


CE Wing is a Connecticut Yankee living in the Queen City. A writer and poet. She has dreamed of being a writer since she was a little girl. Her dream was pushed aside for a time but through her journey of self-discovery, she rekindled her passion for writing. She is currently writing a novel, a traditional fantasy with an LGBTQ theme. You can read more of her writing on Wing’s Poetry

Girl Interrupted – by Rachael Ikins

I was the 17 year old who didn’t want to leave home. Who loved working with her uncle as his “girl Friday” as I had been since age 2. Veterinarian, my future dream, as I held aside cows’ tails, twitched horses, stayed up late assisting him as we tried to save a pregnant dog. Even though he called me “the girl” he threw every job at me, gas-passer for surgeries, taught me injection, how to work the autoclave, to develop xrays.
I was fearless. Happy.
He saw me as equal.
He saw me.

My parents did not and so with nausea in the back of my throat I left that magical summer behind.
Going away to college. Period.
My mother often emphasized with that word.
Period.

A year and a half later, collapsed, a ‘nervous breakdown’ whatever that strange term means, home. Shuttled into the city 5 days a week to a psychiatrist, medicated, so much Thorazine I drooled, vision blurred. I started to cut myself.

My uncle said, “Come work for me again.” One day we went on barn calls together, me riding shotgun, stunned stupid, studying the baby photo of me he kept pinned to the visor.
As we pulled onto my street, he slowed the car, looked over at me and said, “Nothing wrong with you. You don’t need a psychiatrist.”
He saw me.

Over a decade after that lost, the shrinks, drugs that made me act crazy. Diagnoses as mixed as tossed salad. Hospitals, the stuff of nightmares, staff blasting in my room, locking the bathroom because I had used the toilet unsupervised. I checked myself out AMA after 3 days. One girl ran away; they called it “eloping.”

The final shrink, a poetry-lover
so many years later. Helped me off the chemical stew, stood by me for months as my brain and body continued thrashing in the residues. He said, “Your brain was marinated in chemicals.” Yes. It forgot how to sleep. I graduated therapy.
He said, “You were never mentally ill.”
He saw me.

We met for a year, once a month for coffee and poetry in a nearby Starbucks.

*******

I lost everything because I was a girl so interrupted that 25 years passed, a quarter of a century, my chance for children, my young womanhood vanished in bitter smoke.

I found my memories.
I found my poetry.
Body disabled by do-gooders and family too blind to see. Before the days of autism or Aspergers, before people talked about the spectrum. That’s all it was. I figured this out not that long ago. My doctor concurred.
Such a relief.

For years, I needed the anger to keep me moving through the wreckage,
but anger eats the holder just like fire. Nobody was going to pay. Nobody cared but me. After all it is my life.
Mine alone to make or break.

I stood up, shook off and gathered the threads. Knotting with care
so nothing unravels.

My uncle long gone, these Sundays
I watch a veterinarian on cable, quirky older man, and as the episodes pass, my heart slows. I relax. Feeling connected to that stolen girl
who has reclaimed herself.
Who wastes no bitterness
on what might’ve,
what should’ve been.

Maybe she needed to learn
to fight for herself.
Maybe she had to demand
to be who she is.
Before the story could continue.

And so I did.


Rachael Ikins is a 2016/18 Pushcart, 2013/18 CNY Book Award, 2018 Independent Book Award winner, prize-winning author/artist with 9 books. Syracuse University grad, member CNY branch NLAPW, and Associate Editor of Clare Songbirds Publishing House, Auburn, NY. Her new memoir Eating the Sun a love story narrative punctuated by poetry and garden recipes available 4/2019 at Clare Songbirds Publishing House.

Christine’s Daily Writing Prompt: Girl Interrupted

Throughout the month of August, Christine will be providing a daily writing prompt based on the title of a seminal feminist book. These are designed to inspire you to write a poem, prose piece, or a piece of flash fiction in 30 minutes or less.

The only rule is that you use the book title as your piece title OR integrate all the words in the title into your piece somehow

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