You asked too much of me- Kristiana Reed

You asked too much of me

My heart has a question,

it asks with bleeding gums

gingivitis raw:


Will I always find you

in love stories which aren’t mine?


Will you live in every word

I’ll never write, in guilt I try to hide?


My heart has a question,

it asks with pulled down sleeves

and rosy cheeks, tugging on loose thread:


Will this be us forever now?


Heartbroken by my own design

you, always asking why.


Will I know you’re happy

when she comes along?


An angel of settling security,

everything I refused to be.



My heart has a question,

it asks with bee-sting tongue

and an aching jaw:


Will every smile always feel like victory?


A familiar memory shot into the present,

the hope of the hopeless.


Will we continue to laugh this way

even when you’re miles away?


The lover I chose to lose

and the friend I wish could stay.


Will you decide on white and blue?

A chapel and steeple?

Platinum and lace?



My heart has a question,

it asks with unsettled hands,

fingernails bitten to the quick:


Will I always love you

even though, it was me who let us go?

Kristiana Reed juggles writing and teaching English; in both vocations she endeavours to remind people of their self worth and how dazzlingly beautiful the world can be.

You can read more of Kristiana’s writing at My Screaming Twenties